Heart divided

Friends tell me it will pass, but it never beats
Friends show me better, but its not what I want
Friends are being friends, why do I hate them so
.....why?

I just want one person, but they stop you
I just want to kiss one person, I don’t get it

Out of control, not seen before
One side love
One side friends
I cant have both…….can i?
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Family’s
Emotions running high, one little spurt
World war 5
Running drumming with feet, anger in the air
Young girl runs away
Scared for her life, not seen or heard

Family notices drops everything, front door slams with wind
Opened door whistling
Mum wonders with her eyes, crys a name out loud
“LAUREN”
Dad runs outside, repeating while running.
Son walks to her mum and hugs her.

Family’s change, on situations like this
They change….. for the best and forever

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These are just two of them, if you want more i need more people to link people to me! i need thoughts i need ideas for new poems and pics i wanna use this again if i can. XD

I'm gonna stop using this for a while as i .. honeslty need to sort my life out without this in the back of my mind i need to start afresh with something new... everything new in my life..... been good to know you all

from now on i will save up about 50 pounds every month from my work to go towards a holiday... as... i... want.. one... again *crys* its been like 4 years since the last holiday .. hell even if its like anywhere! else but hemel for the day thats like a holiday for me...

anyways yea in college meant to be douing weork and fucking bored..... i dont.. .want.. to be here! lol help me.. * crawls to a little space and dies a little inside* LOL! wow i'm that bored i'm making little ideas for myseld oh oh oh oh its suprising how much fun a rellentless can and a stress ball can be when ya f'ing bored ibn a corridor in the morning lol

anyways back to work.. .and fun.. oh what fun... i want facebook!!!!

1) Are you really ready for 101 questions?
sure... ui have 10 mins to spear XD

2) Was your last kiss a mistake?
uuuummm yea sure was... dont speak to her anymore thou... weirdly lol

3) Do you believe in God?
No

4) Who did you last say I love you to?
holy fucking hell.... a while ago.. that make me a bad pwerson??

5) Do you regret it?
Nope!

6) What's your favorite BBQ'd food?
anything meaty! XD chicken FTW!

7) Have a best friend?
i have like 2 ta 3 of them XD

9) Are you eating?
No, and I wish I was

10) How do you want to die?
Laughing my ass off

11) What did you last eat?
uuummmmmmmmm something last night... had like 4 packets of crisps never had the mucnichies so bad before XD

12) Last call?
my friend ellice like half an hour ago

13) What cell phone service do you use?
orange

14) Tom from MySpace is about to go to jail, what's your first thought?
What the hell did Tom do?!

15) Do you have an attitude?
Oh yeah...A sarcastic one.

16) Ever wanna be in love?
nope XD

17) How much do you text?
too much >.>

18) Like reading?
depends ...

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
yep XD

21) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl YAGOTTA GET IT ON THE FORK! LOL

23) When was your last family reunion?
last year... didnt go to it

25) How exactly are you feeling now?
tired as hell.. and slightly confused

26) Ever ate food in a car while someone or your self is driving?
Often

30) Are Barbie & Ken bad influences on people?
Nope.. well maybe if you count there both plastic!

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
Alot of things.

32) What are you listening to?
nothing...just this typeing and that typing of me doing all the clicking noises lol

33) Do you want to have kids?
maybe

34) Ever kissed somebody with a name that starts with an E?
nope

35) Do you type fast?
someti8mes depends if i'm in the mood and type right all the time as if i get something wrong i gotta go back and look ay the keyboard ...

36) Do you have piercings?
nope not yert....

37) Want any more?
yes...

38) Can you spell well?
i wouldnt fukin say sow ( pun intended lol )

39) What do you miss the most about your past?
well nothing tbh lol

40) What are you craving right now?
anything hungry as fuck!

43) Does somebody love you?
njope......

54) What are your favorite colors?
Black red and blue

55) Do you have trust issues?
Sometimes...

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yep well with my mum only

61) Are you secretly with somebody?
No

62) Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
ha ha never

63) Do you like filling out theselong surveys or is it because your bored?
hell yea 4 mins to go.. gotta hurry up!

67) What was the last movie you saw?
uuuummmmmmmm i cant rem but it was f'ed up!

68) Have you ever walked outside in the rain
yea all thwe time love it!

69) Do you think you are a good person?
Sure

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
kinda

72) What did you do last night?
i did work on my pc and then lpayed on my xbox XD ( nazi zombies ftw! )

73) What does your mouse pad look like?
crap.. old.. and dusty

74) What brand of computer do you use?
dell.. i think

75) Do you play the Wii?
I don't even own one, so nope.


76) How do you feel aboutWalMart?
never been there

77) Do you know where Tehran is?
Somewhere out East?

78) Who has inspired you the most?
picaso

81) Are you mean?
maybe....

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
nope never! not for long anyways

83) Do you believe in true love?
Only when I want to.

84) Are you a lover or a fighter?
depends ionb the day P:

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
nope LOL

86) Who has helped you, or convinced you to change?
my friends and my family

87) Who was the last person to make you mad?
my brother.. like always lol

88) Do you like to be outside?
Yeah kinda.. and when it rains

89) Are you currently bored?
No. and yes...

90) Do you want to get married?
nope lol never XD

91) Ever failed a class?
failed in genral lol XD

92) How many different countries have you been to?
none... only one

93) Do you like celery?
Yeah

93) What makes you happy?
a lot of things lol

95) What is your favorite name for a girl?
dunno atm../ there's alot!

96) What is your favorite name for a boy?
read up!

97) Which name you had given to your animal?
rex, cuddels, jade, snowy and buffy

98) Do you watch the news?
now and then

99) What is your zodiac sign?
scorpio

100) Do you like Subway?
I love it.

101) Who were the last five people you texted?
nick, ellice, nick , nick and becci.

i dont really understand today.. woken up feel fine....
first time i've ever! warn 3 quater leangth jeans.....
andyet y does it feel like such a shit day already.....
i mean wtf! ..... i'm seeing tranformers on friday maybe once or twice not sure yet.

but everything felt greartyesterday just today its all gone.. tits up and for no reason at all.. anyways people got any good ideas on how i can make today fun anyone?...please...beggin you all...

and now onto the good note lol i am drawing well again! i mean come on i love drawing and lost it for ages lol but now .... i drew a weird freaky donimo shaped creature with wings ona canvas at home and its now on my wall XD lol and VV.... wow your fucking weird lol facepalm never winS! ..... lol